s.o.s

I am sick and tired of all the drama I have to go through just to be a part of this family. They hurt me almost every single day, and wonder why i'm always so depressed. They blame all my problems on my friends, when really, my friends are the only ones helping me. Why do I even try? This family is obviously doing nothing good for me. So why do I continue to put myself through this? Because i'm forced to. By law, I have to suffer through this for a few more years. But forcing myself to deal with all this crap is unhealthy (from my point of view). "Forcing." Why do I feel the need to use that word? Because that's the way it is. I don't have any control over my life and it's really starting to effect me, mentally. I am losing it. And i'm really scared.